I dreamt that Jehnny Beth fell in love with me and then a legion of indestructible glass people attacked us.

I dreamt that I got a tattoo and fell in love with the artist that gave it to me. We had a great conversation and I had never felt so in tune with someone before.

Inner Peace:
Since our subjectivities are complex layers of multiple folders
We heal from the outside in
Before we heal from inside out

Inner Peace:
Since our subjectivities are complex layering multiple folders
We heal from the outside in
Before we from heal inside out

i’m desperate, i need to get out of here and change. every day is hurt and every day I need to remember that everything has always been here.
if I go, I can continue in the same anguish but if I go and change, maybe the anguish will pass there.

For my class final, I had been tasked with creating a multi-dish meal. Both sweet and savory ingredients were to be used. We supposedly had a week to get the ingredients together, cook it, and present it to the class. I apparently had no interest in participating, but woke up terrified to realize I hadn’t done anything the day it was due. I found myself crying in this Ralphs-Costco hybrid store looking for the items I needed while the other students were presenting their final meals in the far-off distance.

I give birth to a child. I have kept it a secret all along and it’s the first time I am telling someone. I try to show them a picture of him on the newspaper but I can’t find the page with him on it. It’s looking like I lied but I know I gave birth, I held him in my arms a couple of days earlier.

Last night I dreamt
That somebody loved me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
Last night I felt
Real arms around me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
So, tell me how long
Before the last one?
And tell me how long
Before the right one?
The story is old - I KNOW
But it goes on
The story is old - I KNOW
But it goes on
Oh, GOES ON
And on
Oh, goes on
And on

i dreamed harry styles made a Head Over Heels cover

i dreamed this when i was a little girl, my bedrooms closet had a shower, and blood came out of it instead of water, when the blood fell on me, it hurted so much.

There were three cats thats all looked like mine and I couldnt tell which one was mine. I woke up and lied to my cat that I would always recognise her.

My best friend broke my heart even more and I felt my heart shatter into tinier pieces.

I am Villanelle’s girlfriend on killing eve

Balancing on these wooden planks in the air. You get four, one for each limb but they tilt in ways you don’t expect.

Walk into a mini-mart late at night. The owners are two biker ladies from the 70s. They are smoking inside. There’s a bunch of people crowded in there, like a party/the meet up spot. I try to use this old vending machine because they have weird flavors of Arizona that I’ve never seen before and I was thirsty. The machine is like those old sticker machines. Before I put the last coin in one of the ladies tells me “don’t bother, it doesn’t work.” So I press the return coins button and a bunch of coins and also bills come out but the bills are comically obvious counterfeits clearly made on a copier. Also a bunch of old polaroids from the 70s that have trippy double exposures of old biker hippies come out. Some of the people are creepy looking and I get a feeling that they might be vampires. I hang out with people that I vaguely know in the store for awhile, still thirsty, until most everyone has cleared out. So I go outside where there is a music performance going on.

Vague images of being in a forest, hunting for something. Then in a big house, explaining to people (can’t see who) about this kid I grew up with Sean McDonald. He was smart and we were close at the beginning of high school, even though we came from totally different worlds. Pretty sure he went on to become a trump supporter. Anyway I was in the house and suddenly there was a group of dudes who were gonna come fight us, maybe his friends? I remember standing on the roof of something w a large piece of wood trying to beat them away. We somehow ended up whooping them, winning. They left and we celebrated. For a moment I was alone in the house with Krista and her friend Denee, who’s birthday it was. Then more celebrating with the triumphant boys. Not sure why, but Shia Laboef turns up. There was a pool. Everyone wanted his approval and attention. We made eye contact and there was some sort of kinship and understanding between us. I was thinking of how to approach him without being obnoxious but definitely wanting to tell him about Noah and how much he reminds me of him in this deep physical and energetic way. Eventually Shia starts walking to his car and I ask if I can come. He says yes. I wake up.

I had my work wash up on the shores of the beach. It was golden and pictured an ancient sculpture, a key to the past.

I tried to box it in a frame then the cosa nostra dismantled the frame and took the precious gold fragment and left the husk of a frame.

I sent them a twig of Greek mountain tea and they sent in return woven baskets with citrus leaves of various sizes, dried garlics and chilies, stained scraps of papers, messages I could not decipher but did not need to as all was understood.

A friend was filming at night and told me to look, I saw alligators and he said no they’re aliens. They turned into four legged aliens with huge heads and then quickly into dinosaurs miniatures with tiny heads. We watched the footage and it looked like an aerial view of a city at night.

We’re going out to watch Babydoll perform, but an old family friend of mine is there too. He’s new to Sydney and is performing as well, for the first time, but at a different club. We get off the bus in the business district and you try to order Thai food but nowhere is open because it’s late. We walk to the club and make it to Babydoll’s performance and then leave to go to the other club, but it turns out he was just working the door. He didn’t bring his glasses because he was going to perform, now he can’t read anyone’s ID.

I was leaving my car to go for a run and then I noticed two horses. You and a mysterious brunette resembling Charlotte Rampling approached me and you gave me a carrot to feed the horse. Once the Rampling lookalike trotted out of earshot you whispered: I’m learning how to avoid negativity.